~回忆~

My life is so messed up recently...

I even feel that I'm no longer myself anymore...

I've grown tougher..yeah..I guess so..(I still remember I wasn't that tough last time..when every classmates of mine wrote "要坚强点，不要哭哦" in my autograph book..lolz..)

I could always control my emotions and keep my feelings to myself previously..but now I think I'm losing control of it..it's not that I'm insane or what..its just that i find it harder and harder to control my anger, sadness and disappointment towards everything..
Sometimes I show bad face..sometimes I say something that might hurt others without noticing it..not sure whether I've hurt anyone..(I'm sorry if I did) See..how BAD I am..

I get upset more easily..even if its a small matter..I don't know why..I have no idea..

I sleep very late nowadays..average time i sleep is 3am..(compared to 12am last time) Thanks to UTAR for this..I've never been so stressed before..never in my life..and "headache" has become my good friend..coming to find me almost everyday..


All I can say is:
Things have changed..Life has become more complicated..until u can't face it if you're immature..or naive..You can't do what you want without thinking through it very carefully..Considering every option and every consequences..and sometimes..this can be very difficult and tiring..

我们常常说人生很短暂，所以想要做什么事就应该去做。
可是在这个现实的世界里，我们真的能够随心所欲，做自己想要做的事，说自己想说的话吗？
这个现实的世界，还是充满了矛盾和无奈......

To me, I still think that..天真多好！



Am I still myself?
I hope I am...